Meltdown in a layby

I hate you grief.

Your cruel and uncaring.

It’s almost a year.

Eight more days.

You’ve poked at me this week.

Reminded me constantly.

I know how long it is since I lost her.

Since I lay beside her.

I have had our grand daughter today.

I brush her hair and sing nursery rhymns

Telling her of her two nanny’s adventures.

She goes home with her dad and I get in my car and head out in the rain.

I’m meeting friends in the next village.

Your there waiting as I pass the old collery

Hunched craftilly waiting in the shadow of the derilict pit head.

Like one of those police traps covered in nails

You make me stop my car and pull over.

There is a screaming a howl from the depths of my soul.

A year

Almost 365 days

It’s raining . Pouring the mist covers the mountain tops like grey cotton wool.

I miss you I sob into the air of this dimension knowing you hear me on the astral.

No one

Not one of my family has ever asked how I am.

Don’t they know that

I’m lonely without you

I miss you.

For fucks sake I shout

Everyone always thought u was the strong one

They were wrong

My strength was you.

The rain runs down my windscreen cars wizz past the layby

Get a grip I tell myself

Grief flows like the rain

As it turns to drizzle

I catch my breath

Please stop for just awhile .

I dry my eyes

Take a deep breath and keep going.

It’s the only option I have

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Author: Raven Tarot❤️

Musings and magical workings of a traditional witch mountain wondering poet and dreamer. Lover of all things magical. Life is always beautiful, but sometimes hard. if you don't like the way things are change it. Raven🖤

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